January 2011
42 posts
no more complaining
I’m at this point where I’m completely no longer interested nor concerned about where I’m headed next. In terms of relationship.
I’m glad everything fell apart, cause now better things are slowly falling into place.
You see, I found a reason to be happy again.
At this age, I’ve realized who is really worth living or dying for; my family, my friends, and my complete...
Now that there's nothing depressing in life, I've...
“its okay, write about happy things. duh.” Haha.
Just for you.
Listen
“Treat her right if she’s the love of your life. Coz they say that it never comes...”
– The Northern Lights - Stars (Love Of Your Life)
Going to the bathroom.
Girls to another girl friend- “Wanna go to the bathroom with me?” Boys- They just go.
Weird, but so true.
Yeah , I found out myself. She actually became a...
Hey, let me give you a piece of advice though. If you really love that guy, try to make it work with him. It seems he really makes you happy, or you really make him happy, so just fight for that. What’s in the past is the in the past. Don’t give him anymore reason to stress cause he can only handle an amount of it. He’s a really nice guy and you should just be thankful he’s...
a blessing in disguise.
I’m thankful you finally came across that “homewrecker” post, yeah the message you sent me completed the puzzle that’s been scattered all over my brain. You weren’ t the only girl he talked to while he was with me, he also had another one hidden in front of you which I’ve already taken care of over the summer. They talked for 6 months, and he...
silence is simply golden,
"Both of us deserve better than staying together...
Ok so..
Haha, I’ve become a creeper. I have this crush on someone from far across the bay, ahem. I hate you Cabrera & Castro, and maybe Pham too. I’ve never met him, nor spoke to him. But I have a feeling maybe one day he’ll come around. :D lol. Be quiet.
I can't find the inspiration to process my...
Its funny cause now I actually look forward to a future that has nothing to do with me and you. Every time I come across a picture or a memory that occurred in between the dates of August 1, 2008 to November 6, 2010. I begin to mourn. It’s like a piece of me has just died. Like a departed family member or a burnt sentimental object I’ve had since I was a baby. I find myself looking for...
25 to life - Eminem
I’m addicted To the pain, the stress, the drama I’m drown in so I guess imma mess Cursed and blessed But this time imma Ain’t changing my mind I’m climbing out this abyss
Bruno Mars- Today my life begins
goodmorning.
I woke up to the sweet voice of a mofo with a black second name. :) Haha, finally woke me up on time!
Went right back to sleep though. Had a dry ass throat and stuffy nose.
I had a dream I accidentally ate this pill that automatically kills you within the day, a “suicide pill.” How it works? Its fastens the flow of blood in your body to wear the most organs will explode. Haha. I had...
Ahem. How is it there on the other side? Cause it...
Yeah, I’m walking away from all that broken glass scattered on the floor. I’ve already been scarred many times. It’s your turn now.
Let me tell you this though, you may “love” him, but you don’t love him the way I do.
We vibe like no other.
So live it up, cause I sure will.
I don’t know you personally but hun, I hear you have qualities a lot like...
I love how my mom repeats every little statement I make with a question just to reassure it. With all that, “Ha? I repeat all your statements with a question?” Yes mother. And how my dad kills all drama by stating the obvious. Lmao.
Are all filipinos like that?
I'm inlove with your voice.
Directly to this dumb ass who’s on the line with me right now and suddenly hit his head on the headboard of the bed he’s been having all his life. I mean who does that? Now he’s telling me his first ex girlfriend now goes to his school. Teehee. okay cool story bro :D
“Camille, do you know how to cat daddy?” Ew? Haha.
We drove to the church near by and parked for a...
if only you can stop your mind from blocking how...
You came by today as I was getting ready to leave. You ran up to my bathroom and began rapping your song to me. I was okay, I’ve been feeling a whole better and I wasn’t afraid to show you that. I continued doing what I was doing while you interrogated me about my plans for the day.
I can still feel you. I can feel you’re not as happy. I can see something isn’t right about...
You should have your own travel agent cause you is...
Crab feeding was pretty cool haha. Victor Chen was my partner ;) and we killed it. We were like the best looking servers out there ahem! Served for about 3 hours, cleaned and headed to my bestfriend’s party.
Drove around for hours dropping off and swooping a few people. I actually had fun. Haha, I’m really am beginning to enjoy this “single life.”
I sit in the car...
Enough said.
I have grown speachless towards your motives. I honestly don’t understand what good they do at this point. I honestly don’t wana foresee the bright side of everything anymore.. mostly in terms of our future, cause you know, I’ve finally concluded that there will never a vercamilog again.
If choosing yourself also means driving down to Sacramento today, a two hour drive, just to...
All the bullshit's for the birds, you ain't...
I don’t understand why you wana keep me in your pocket like this? I mean yeah, I know where you must be coming from. But I can’t be kept posted. I know I drove you to be how you are now, but I also know I atleast deserve a bit of your respect. I’ve been tolerating all your shit. I really have been. I’ve been keeping myself in check for what may happen in the future which...
You don't even know..
how much I love Tiffany Pham, She’s the motherfucking best!
Adele- Make You Feel My Love
its funny cause,...
You know I can't blame you for the way you act...
Just like your love for me burns with hot...
I had a really good morning today. I woke up to the call of my beloved homosexual cousin, that unusually impacts a lot on the way I think. And his beautiful girlfriend that also somehow made me feel the way I’m feeling right now.
I’m beginning to see the brighter side of why things fell apart. Even though, everything is so off balanced in my life right now, I’ll find a way to...
Bad weathers like this, I wish I was still opening...
Okay, so where do I begin?
Yesterday, we spent a whole day together. It began with a simple drive in your car. Actually being in the car that was meant for us, it felt beautiful. You may have not noticed it, but every second of you driving makes me wana break down and cry. I can’t look at you. I remember just last summer, sitting in the bus, surrounded by random musty faces, dreaming...
Used to be running through my mind Now you're...
But shit that soft spot you filled with rain, and...
So then guess what.
Here I am again, missing another day of school. Not because I couldn’t see you. But because I couldn’t stop my mind from thinking good thoughts about seeing you. I don’t want expectations. I honestly don’t want anything to do with this anymore. If there was a way I could vanish that memory block full of sanity stuck in this bull shitted piece of crapped...
If the b*tch fits, I just know you were on the...
”Well, i just want you to know that.. That day I broke up with you, nov. 6, I didn’t break up with you because I wanted to move on. I broke up with you cause I expected us to get back together as soon as I saw you trying harder for me. I honestly loved you, and never for once did I think these very days would come so soon. But I’ll respect your decisions at this, cause I know I...
The wind that entered my brain just swished right...
Oh guess what, I’m right next to you right now.
I feel like shit. I’m trying my best to stop myself from looking in your eyes.
I know I look okay, I know it may I don’t care anymore.
But I do. I’m just stopping myself.
I wana talk to you. I wana ask you if she gave you that sweater your wearing for christmas.
But theres no point, I’ll only make it harder for...
:/
Hey Simply Pimply.
I miss the way you say “pidipompi” with that big ass grin on your face. I miss that grin. Your crucid smile, your beautiful smile. That laugh of yours, that exact duplicate of my kuya noy’s laugh. The giggle you project as my hands attempts to reach for your armpits. Your eagle eyes, they used to look at me as if I was the most beautiful girl its seen. Backed...
I hate this shit. You go out. You have fun. You're...
My first goodnight to you, you stranger.
My so called lover.
So today, I was able to survive a day alone in my house. With the company of a fat headache, a couple of disturbing nightmares that turned into this disorder a nerd like you would call sleep paralysis, a hand full of hershey’s kisses, inspirational filipino drama that you hate so much, a pile of make up work, a few tears and a torned up heart.
I told myself today that...
Distance only makes the heart grow fonder.
We ended in a good note. A mutual understanding, well I simply had to agree with him. His decision is simply my decision, and that’s what hurts the most. I gave him my word that I’m letting go and now, to show him that I’m strong, there’s no turning back. Everything hurts. I mean everything. How can I possibly be without the only person I wana be with. Same shit keeps going...
"He's in love. And because he's in love, he'll... →
He used to call at 2:00AM because he couldn’t sleep. Secretly, I would wait up for his calls just to make sure he was doing alright. If something so little would make him happy, I wanted to be able to do that for him.. so I did. I researched the college he wanted to go to and figured out the deadlines and such, what he needed for the application, etcetera because he needed it more than I did....
Not being able to sleep and not eating are just... →
Not being able to sleep and not eating are just the basics. Sleeping but waking up is torture. Because you don’t know how to separate from someone you loved. You can’t even tell anyone else. You’re afraid they’ll think of them badly. And so, you cry all by yourself. ‘We’re over, we’re finished.’ But only memories of good times and love pop up. The more and more you try to erase them, the...
Anonymous asked: how you get so skinny
They tell me everything happens for a reason. That...
But what if the incident was your life? What if the incident became your only life for two years. I loved him, and when you love someone, you tend to give them every piece of you. Your heart, of coarse, your body, your soul, your mind, your opinions. I mean it goes both ways when the significant other loves you the same way. That was the case for me and him. We loved each other. We slowly learned...